Wednesday, February 4, 2015

Real Human Being

 I often have different opinions with other people. I always let other people know that my thought is differnet, and I think it is because of my charactoristic reason. I think it is very important to stand my own opinion even it is different from others. Also, to have a differnt opinion is very natural and nothing is wrong with it.
 Honestly, the reason I have come to the US is related with this. In Korea, people tend to think some ideas different from majorities are wrong. Also, even someone have their own opinion, it is hard to express that because they worry about others' blaming. However, in America, they are more likely to respect people's own thoughts or ideas although they are obviously wrong. I think to express the difference is real human being because the distintive difference between machine and the human is that human think, create, and express. If we follow other people's thought, I think that is just a machine. Also, if we read some biography of a lot of successful people, we are able to know that they had been very different since they were children.
 Today in my english class, Mr. Barrett made us to find the factor that makes this cartoon(Calvin and Hobbes) funny. When we presented our thoughts, I got to know that I had found the humor in different scene. After I heard the intension of the author, I finally understood fully. However, even though I knew my thought was pretty awful, I pointed out. The reason I never ignore myself is because I am a human, and I think human should have their own thought distinctive from others.

Tuesday, January 20, 2015

My Love From Another Star

 These days, I am watching the Korean drama called "My Love From Another Star" every weekend.  This drama used to be very famous in Korea a year ago. At that time, I didn't have enough time to watch the drama so I couldn't watch it. However, after I came to the US, I have been having plenty of times on weekends. So I started to watch this drama!

 This drama is about the love between the boy who's from another planet and the girl who's a famous actress in Korea. The boy, whose name is 'Do Min-Jun', has been living in the Earth for 400 years since his UFO left him in the Earth. He is able to use some super powers, and after he gets to know the girl, he uses this super powers to rescue her from a lot of dangerous scenes. The girl names 'Cheon Song-E' has two best friends: Yoo Sam-E, and Lee Hwi-Kyeong. Sam-E is also an actress, however, she always has inferiority feeling towards Song-E. In a lot of episodes, Song-E and Sam-E have a lot of comflicts. The reason of the big conflict between two girls is that Hwi-Kyeong has loved Song-E since he was 15, while Sam-E loves Hwi-Kyeong.  This makes the drama more interesting!

 Min-Jun and Song-E have a lot of conflicts before they love each other, however, they finally fall in love with each other. Hwi-Kyeong's older brother, Jae-Kyeong, has a big secret that he is a murderer. He has killed his ex-wife, her new girlfriend, and has been trying to kill Song-E because she knows a lot of facts about his murdering. Whenever Jae-Kyeong tries to kill Song-E, Min-Jun is able to know what's going to happen to Song-E in several hours from his dream, and rescue her from Jae-Kyeong. In every 402 years, the planet that Min-Jun had been living approaches to the Earth. Min-Jun gets to know that he only has a month in the Earth, or he has to wait for another 402 years. Song-E feels something strange in his action towards her whenver she says about where she wants to go, what she wants to do. And finally, she gets to know what will happen in a month.

 This drama consists of twenty-two episodes including the special episode "The Beginning". I didn't finish the drama yet and I am expecting the next story.

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

New Resolutions;Revolutions on me!

 2015! It is a new bright year!
I am just so happy that I am 15 in Korean age now.

 It was a challenge for my family to let me study in the US.
I came here because I wanted to be a global person. I have a desire to be a big person.
In short, the reason that I have come here is to LEARN A LOT and to TRY A LOT OF NEW THINGS.

 I used my first semester of 8th grade to make a lot of friends and to let myself adapt to life here.
In 2015, I have some resolutions, and these are 3 big resolutions:

 First, I hope to study super hard, so I can raise my history grade. To achieve this, I will study history for an hour everyday even if there's no homework. I think this will be the first step for setting this goal. Also, I will make flashcards for every quiz and test.
 Second, I will control myself well. Like, I will try hard to wake up at 6:30 everyday, and also, I won't watch YOUTUBE a lot, so that I can use the time to study.
 Last, I want to learn new languages. These days, I am very interested in Russian. So I will study hard to do. Also, after I graduate from ELL, I want to take Chinese as a foreign language and to study Spanish on my own.

I hope I can fully achieve my resolutions.


Good Luck to me!!

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

tangle

These days, I am suffering a lot because of several things.
Those things drive me crazy, and sob a lot. I've been struggling a lot since I came here.

First, it is very hard to explain, which is related to my friendship. I tried to make a lot of friends when I first came here, so I kept trying talking to others in my grade. However, they saw me like 'Why she tries to be with us? Why she tries to come into our group?', and I could feel that. I felt really bad about that I tried hard but couldn't be a friend with others. I had some bad experiance when I was in Korea. So yesterday night, I dreamed really bad nightmare, which setting was my previous school. I kept screaming while I was sleeping, and I couldn't cure myself yet. Because of that, these days, whenver others stare at me, or talk something between each others looking at me, I feel really scared, and very nervous. Even it is not related to me, I think it is all about my bad things, and on the other hand, I tried to be super kind to everyone even i had to get some disavantages, but why... why others think me bad... I have no idea if I am a person who others hate, or if it is just my confusion. If others hate me, I really want to know why so that I can change it. Also, korean seniors told me that 8th graders are grouping a lot so it is hard for me to be in that group. The worst thing is that even I try to spread happy virus with hiper voice, kind voice, everyone reacts like...'She is weird'. The more I try to be kind, not to give any bad affect to others, I gain more stress, become more depressed.

Next, there is a girl names 'Faith' in my grade. She is my previous roommate. I had some big reason to change my roommate, so I changed to Abbigaile now. By the way, whenever I see Faith, I feel really mad and want to run away. Honestly, the reason of changing the roommate was related to sexual things. Whenever I find something same between me and her, I stop being same. For example, if she is sitting similar with me, then I immediately change the way I sit. If I find any similarity, I just want to run away, and feel like I am so dirty. I hate myself that I seriously hate a person. And I am not a racist, but everytime I see African Americans, I just feel like they are all same with Faith.

Last, there was a stocker when I was in Korea. He was my science teacher for a month and a half, and not that close with me. But after several month I quit his class, he started to talk about my private things such as physical things. I felt really bad and ashamed, so started to avoid his talking. However, several days ago, he tried to ask me about our school's address. If he was close with me, I can understand him trying to know so many things about me.. but he's not. He talked about my hands, my feet.... and he told me to watch a movie, and see each other. I have my own blog in other site, and whenever I check 'visited blogger', he is always there even it shows only 3 previous visitor. A lot of people visit my blog, so it means that he always visit it. I asked him why with e-mail, but I recieved his answer that he becomes so happy whenever he sees my life.
Because of him, I started to avoid talking in letter with men. Whenever I read similar tone of letter conversation, I feel really bad, and I want to scream. Even my dad....

I feel like I have a disease in my mind and brain..

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Love Exo Again

I expected that America will be much looser than Korea, so I was happy that I can continue loving exo, and spending time for that. However, It was really busy here, much busier than I'd expected, so I couldn't enjoy exo for a long time. Even Exo 90:2014 full video was not in Youtube maybe I guess cuz of SM ent, so there was nothing new to meet with exo. I brought a box of exo goods. It is my precious, and I sometimes open it and enjoy looking at my baby. By the way, honestly, Exo started to be erased in my mind due to my a lot of homeworks to do everyday. It was kinda sad story, but anyway, I restarted my blog several days ago, and I tried not to forget exo. Unfortunately, my blog is restarted so my previous neighbors are all gone now. I feel really sad about that, and now, I changed the way I post my blog little. I used to post anything such as my feeling, or some crazy mumbling everyday, even without any thought. But now, I'm going to post that I can put my memory in, and can feel it afterwords. About Exo, I'm going to write something that happend, my thought of them, or anything that is related to them.

Go back to talking about exo, I am going to like them and enjoy them passionly again from now on. Honestly, I'm now in my Honor Algebra 2 class finished my test much earlier than others do (cuz they are now still having their test). Anyway, I'm going to find something interesting about exo. 

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

I MISS U GUYS

LOL(laugh out loudly), LMAO(laugh my ass out), ASAP(as soon as possible), YOLO(you only live once), IDGAF(I dont get all fxxx), CBB(can't be bothered)...

These r sth that I learned frm my favorite teacher Timmie. He was the only person who could understand abt me everything, so that I could tell him everything without any boundaries.

His thought was very similar wth mine so we liked each others. B4 I left korea, I had a meal wth him in Italian food restaurant, Chipolla Rosso. I had a convo wth him about a lot of things, include my stressful things, english, my family things, coming to the USA, and etc. I had a lot of kakaotalk, which is Korean messanger, with him abt my concern stuffs. I really liked him cuz he has told me a lot of things that r good 4 my life. I still really appreciate him a lot abt those all things.

Lets keep in touch, Timmie.
I really miss u.

My plan in the webb scl

I have Geometry for my math. I think it is super easy TT
I just want to have harder curriculum. So this semester, Im going to study Math super hard, and when I go back to Korea on winter vacation, Im gonna study math in english really fast and hard.
I have already learned everything Im learning now almost 2~3 years ago.
I have problem in math vocab, so after I master the math vocab, Im gonna ask my math teacher that I want to take a test for advance the class.
I want to have geometry honor, because Geometry is too easy for me.

Im going to be a math genius, cuz its gonna be bad if I keep going same as others.